Each morning I wake up when I move my right arm and shoulder; I have an incredible burning sensation that starts at my sternum and moves on a diagonal to my right breast. It feels like my flesh is on fire. One morning I looked down expecting to see flames. The pain lasts about 1 -2 minutes. That does not sound like its that long? Let me tell you when your flesh, muscles, nerves are on fire how long is too long? I moan with pain, trying to hold back the early morning tears that form in my eyes… Once or twice a tear as leaked down my cheek. A few times, mom and Steve have rushed into my room to see what was wrong. Now, they just leave me to my pain…knowing they can not help me. Knowing they can do nothing to stop the burn.
My bones will heal, my tendons will mend, I will have scars on my skin, scars in my mind, and I am afraid that I will forever have the burning that starts my morning.
