Team Cheryle


A new day…

Last year at this time, I was getting through Steve’s illness, praying every day for him to get better. I had made a mistake that cost me a semester of school, but I was able to see that I was where I needed to be. I was at his side 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. I was able to work, and get my life in order. I could finally see the light, and the reason and the why… I had finally found peace for everything that had happened to me… I was on my way, to finally fulfilling my dreams. I could see the light at the end of this long tunnel.

Fast-forward twelve months…I cannot change what has happened to me. I cannot change the choice that I made that morning drive home on the country road. I cannot change the course of events that have now changed my entire life. I am alive; I am able to see another day.

I have been asked how I feel? I have been asked if I am angry? I have been asked all kinds of questions. I will say that yes I am angry. I am angry because in just 3 short months I should be standing alongside my best friend while we receive our Nursing pins. I am angry that in 3 short months I should be walking across the stage at graduation, earning the College degree that I have worked so hard for. I am angry that I should be applying for new grad positions and preparing to take my NCLEX exam. I should be ready to start classes for my next degree. I should be ready to welcome my husband home, and start the next chapter in our lives… So yes I am angry. I am allowed to be angry; I am allowed to be MAD.

I always look to the bright side of life. I am always looking at a situation and trying to see the positive side. I have been doing some soul searching the last few days and nights. What I have discovered is I will heal. I will return to school in the fall, and I will graduate in December. I know that I will fulfill my dreams, and I will be the Nurse that I am meant to be.

I am reminded of words that I wrote one year ago today:

Now the dust has settled, I can see the new horizon ahead. Yet again my view has changed, as I look out of a new window…

I have been juggling many things over the past 2 1/2 week…So many things have changed. It’s hard to believe, I still feel that I will wake from this nightmare and things will be as they should. I know that I can’t change what is not within my power to change.  I know that I cannot change what has been done…I can only move forward and hold my faith…

Take this as you will…Everyone will get something different from this…


Leave comment

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked with *.